kylezy

Right. So.

The Merlin finale.

( Let's get the negative out of the way first )

( Now the positive )

Fiiiics:

Hold My Heart Until It Beats
Old Love, But In Shapes That Renew And Renew Forever
Let Your Heart Hold Fast
Forever Ago

Not having the greatest week on record, things are rubbish at home again with my grandfather's depression and I've been having let's call them "chest issues" for the last four days. I hope you guys are doing better than me ♥

So. Is there fic where Arthur or Merlin is a girl who gets turned into a boy forever and the pair, who've been flirting for months, now have to deal with that? Does that exist?

Also: do we have any gladiator fics? Because I would also very much like to read that too.

Finally, does anyone have a trusted recipe for chicken soup?

*curls into a ball*

I don't know what the flip is wrong with me lately, but I've been crying at pretty much the slightest emotion all week. But the happy ones only. I've been in an emo mood for the last couple of days, but the moment anything happy occurs, I'm all SOB SOB GREATEST THING EVER.

I was re-reading In Want Of A Wife by syllic earlier and it hit me all of a sudden how utterly, utterly meant for each other Merlin and Arthur are. Not just in that story, but in everything; in fic, in the show, in my head. Regardless of circumstance or merit, they're intertwined in such a way that makes it impossible for one to live without the other. That makes true happiness unattainable in anyone else's arms but each other's.

And it's not that this thought has never occured to me before, but the weight of it sort of pulled me under until I was wrecked with the gravity of it all, the enormity of such love.

And then I just felt really stupid because they're fictional characters, but whoever said hormones were supposed to make you rational?

So anyway, that set me off all afternoon, like a[n] [in-dire-need-of-a-mood-stabiliser] boss. Couple that with unnecessary repeats of my dead!Arthur fanmix and this fanvid of Bradley and Colin that rebbeile found, and today has just been flipping marvelous.

In other failings, somewhere in between being a perve and rejoicing that other people are just as pervy as I am, I forgot to thank lemniciate for coming up with a couple of the questions in the HARDEST POLL EVERRR (if you haven't voted, what, what, WHAT is wrong with you, you righteous bastards), after incessant nagging from me earlier that morning. SO THANK YOU, YOU MORALLY DUBIOUS WENCH.

I was halfway through a whingey entry, waxing emotive about being sick (again, thanks for failing at your job, immune system), and loneliness, and how much I miss fandom and the way it was when I first joined - when there was a sense of community and people wanted to discuss things and make new friends, instead of hanging out anonymously and bitching and whining unnecessarily; and then I was like, NO, KYLIE. Not tonight. Tonight we dine in lulz.

So I give you the thing that never fails to make me cry with laughter - HP Summary Executions: Greatest Hits. Basically, the best (read: worst) summaries people have come up with for their Harry Potter fanfiction.

To entice you:

A story of pain and sorrow, not intented for comfort or laughter...a story that remains untold, on of abuse and blood...telling of a shattered girl who learned to twist a heart of stone into one of warm gold. This is not a story for the faint of heart, nor the happy in spirit. But for those who are able to understand what it means to be hurt...to watch as a girl's spirit is shattered like glass upon concrete. Watch as she melts the young master's heart of ice, and watch as she helps him heal. She has no name, but his...is Señor Draco.

Señor Draco.

Señor Draco.

Señor Draco.

Other slices of brilliance to look forward to (just the keywords, I don't want to spoil you too much, after all): Dumbledore fucks no Americans!, back virginity, wereflamingoes, and MIND BOOGLEING SUPENUSE!!!

Enjoy, guys!

PS. wholly_crepe, your WIP has comforted me immeasurably these last few days. Jsyk. ♥

Oh Sunday morning, you have so little meaning to me now.



Sigh, ~memories.

EDIT: OMG THIS VIDEO (s3 spoilers obvs)


(Via elderberryink @ ontd_merlin)

Forgive my lack of comments, I've been rather

and

of late and that's no fun for anyone. BUT IT'S QUEST DAY and that solves everything!



Via buddug_92 @ shapingdestiny

1.30am - Bed
4.30am - Wide awake

I don't think I've slept more than ten hours total in the last week and a half.

HEY BODY CLOCK?



Somebody make me a bowl of soup so I can weep into it. Hugs also accepted but there better be some sly groping involved.

Aiming to start posting less, I realised I was being a prick with all my constant whining about being bored and/or emo. You guys didn't sign on for that shit and that's not what I'm usually about, honest. Well, I'm sort of emo tonight because I had a huge fight with my grandfather, but I'm not about to whinge about it in great detail.

( Music Meme, Day Eight )

( 25 songs for you to download )

( Two album reviews + trailer for The Magnetic Fields doco )

( Long-ass meme I won't blame you for skipping )

Day 19 → a talent of yours

I am ridiculously skilled at self-sabotage.

After getting good grades all my life, with just one and a half years to go at school, I stopped trying.
I eat unhealthily and don't exercise.
I don't seek help for my medical problems and when I did get the guts to go in last year, I never followed his advice and referrals.
I've never had a proper job (the nannying and cleaning I've done for the past few years don't really count) and I'm getting to the point, if I'm not there already, where it's pretty much too late for me because who is going to want to hire the 24 year old with as limited experience as I have? Besides a call centre that is, but I won't work on telephones, I hate them.
I'm lonely but I won't go out and meet new people.

You know how I could fix all this? By doing the opposite. But making an effort. But god forbid I try.

I'd give anything for a rewind button.

I'm gonna disable comments on this entry because I'd feel awkward turtles about getting pity comments.

Now bed, as it is 3.30am and I have to be up at 8, boo visitors. Happy Valentine's Day, by the way, if you celebrate such a thing.