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Feb. 14th, 2010 03:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kylezyDay 19 → a talent of yours
I am ridiculously skilled at self-sabotage.
After getting good grades all my life, with just one and a half years to go at school, I stopped trying.
I eat unhealthily and don't exercise.
I don't seek help for my medical problems and when I did get the guts to go in last year, I never followed his advice and referrals.
I've never had a proper job (the nannying and cleaning I've done for the past few years don't really count) and I'm getting to the point, if I'm not there already, where it's pretty much too late for me because who is going to want to hire the 24 year old with as limited experience as I have? Besides a call centre that is, but I won't work on telephones, I hate them.
I'm lonely but I won't go out and meet new people.
You know how I could fix all this? By doing the opposite. But making an effort. But god forbid I try.
I'd give anything for a rewind button.
I'm gonna disable comments on this entry because I'd feel awkward turtles about getting pity comments.
Now bed, as it is 3.30am and I have to be up at 8, boo visitors. Happy Valentine's Day, by the way, if you celebrate such a thing.
I am ridiculously skilled at self-sabotage.
After getting good grades all my life, with just one and a half years to go at school, I stopped trying.
I eat unhealthily and don't exercise.
I don't seek help for my medical problems and when I did get the guts to go in last year, I never followed his advice and referrals.
I've never had a proper job (the nannying and cleaning I've done for the past few years don't really count) and I'm getting to the point, if I'm not there already, where it's pretty much too late for me because who is going to want to hire the 24 year old with as limited experience as I have? Besides a call centre that is, but I won't work on telephones, I hate them.
I'm lonely but I won't go out and meet new people.
You know how I could fix all this? By doing the opposite. But making an effort. But god forbid I try.
I'd give anything for a rewind button.
I'm gonna disable comments on this entry because I'd feel awkward turtles about getting pity comments.
Now bed, as it is 3.30am and I have to be up at 8, boo visitors. Happy Valentine's Day, by the way, if you celebrate such a thing.
