In which you'll have to excuse me

[kylezy]

Forgive my lack of comments, I've been rather

and

of late and that's no fun for anyone. BUT IT'S QUEST DAY and that solves everything!

Via buddug_92 @ shapingdestiny

Comments

[kylezy.livejournal.com]

Hee, he's a special little camper, isn't he? I just want to smoosh him until security pulls me away <3

Fandom has been making me sadface lately, it's all rather depressing, but it's okay.

I WILL TAKE THAT WISH THOUGH, YOU CAN'T TAKE IT BACK NOW *holds tightly to chest* Write something else Merlin-y? Because I loved that fill you did at the trope meme <333 Is that doable?

Also, I LOVE YOU.

[paenteom.livejournal.com]

W-what? ;o; Why?
I'm a bit out of the Merlin fandom lately, so I haven't picked up on anything, was it something there? D:
Do I have to kick someone?
You can write me a PM if you like. :/

ffff, oh god, b-but that was sort of an accident! I have no idea how that came out in the end. B-but I will try. Just don't be disappointed. x.x

I still need to watch Merlin 7 & 8. D: I'm so behind and I don't even know why. Even though S3 is better than S2 in many things, I just miss S1.

[paenteom.livejournal.com]

BTW: I LOVE YOU TOO AND MY OFFER WITH LAS VEGAS AND CHARMING ASIAN CHILDREN STILL STANDS.
Just so you know.

[kylezy.livejournal.com]

CAN WE TAKE THE KIDS TO FRANCE FOR OUR HONEYMOON TO STALK BRADLEY AND COLIN? I THINK IT WOULD BE A FUN TIME FOR ALL, YES?

As for fandom woes. Well, it goes like this. I understand people's woes and of course everyone has the right to complain, but the stream of negativity seems endless, it just gets me down when I'm trying to be positive to keep the love alive for myself.

And then there's the lack of comments I got on my threesome fic, three from people who weren't on my flist (and even with them it wasn't a lot), and I don't understand why. I'm not a great writer by any means and I don't deserve heaps of praise, but three comments is just depressing. I can string sentences together and I've seen worse get more comments, so why is my stuff so terrible? And right now I've only got two from non-flist on my latest fanmix, although I've learned to live with that. 1500 downloads and I bet less than 50 comments TOTAL over all of them from people not on my flist. I've never been in a fandom that makes me feel this inferior or invisible, WHICH IS NUTS because I know I'm just whinging. I have some ridiculously fantastic people on my flist who are encouraging and supportive and it does make me happy, but sometimes it's nice to have outside approval, you know?

And ragh, there's the disintegration of a fandom friendship that's meant quite a lot to me. It's been going downhill for a while but it still hurts.

tl;dr: waaah, get yourself a real life, Kylie.

But yay, I'm glad you're going to try writing again! That's cheer-inducing, let me tell you XD

[paenteom.livejournal.com]

EXCELLENT IDEA, YES.

Ah, well, I guess I'm a little whiner too.
But yes, some people just overdo it and take certain things far too seriously.
I mean, come one, it's a show about the very homoerotic relationship between a prince and his manservant, which also involves trolls, pixies and unicorns.
Just sayin'.

I hadn't even noticed you had posted the fic, gadsgafg. SORRY. ;o;
/fails hard
L-link?

But I get what you mean. People don't read anything these days unless a big name is attached to it, which is sad, because the most awesome stuff is mostly by people who aren't that well known.
And I think you write brilliantly, no need to put yourself down, really.
It's the same with my icons, I used to get a lot of comments and on the last entry I got...2.
Which is not very encouraging, really.
SO I FEEL YOU.
LET'S HUG A LOT.

And I'm sorry about your friend. ;o; The best way is to approach them about it before it's too late.

[kylezy.livejournal.com]

THIS, EXACTLY.

Ohh, no, I didn't mean to guilt you into reading it. It's not a fic that appeals to everyone. But here it is (http://kylezy.livejournal.com/98492.html) anyway.

YES LET'S. HUGHUGHUGHUGHUG. You're awesome.

[kylezy.livejournal.com]

PS. Don't feel you have to reply to this or anything btw, I swear I'm not looking for pity. Just, yeah, you asked, and this is why I'm emosaurus at the mo. My mind, it is one giant pity party for one.